Hi all and welcome froglady!! So it's 240 am and I've been up an hour already! This sleep thing sucks. Melatonin did nothing. I'm so tired. What am I gonna do with that baby tomorrow? Froglady- congrats on ur 4 months! One day soon I'll be there! Can't wait! One day....
Big prob right now is sleep but it will eventually return! I'll live. Is it weird to say that I don't have the obsessions and emotional side effects yet. Maybe I'm just so determined that there's nothing that will ever make me go bak there. Or is it coming!? I just want it all back to normal. There was a huge blow out yesterday between my sis and kom about getting my son for a few hours and I felt like it was all getting blown out of proportion and it was my fault just for asking for help. Christ. Very stressful day. Think it's contributing to the no sleep. My mother can be so hateful and insists on treating me like I'm 15 instead of 36. So uesterday I put my foot down and said I just can't talk to her for a while. Not while I'm going through detox and paws. She's an *** without w/d! Magnified during it! Hope everyone is well. I know that no sleep makes everything worse so hopefully no cravings tomorrow. Good news is, no way of getting it! Take care and help! Kelly
that you, you are full of helpful information, the sports medicine doctor i was referred to said we should try the wait and see approach and it should heal it's self with rest then physical therapy. but after talking to a friend who is a chiropractor he said the same info you just told me, and basically I'm just stretching this out longer by not having the surgery done by now, he said chances are if i already had the surgery i would be back to work by now. well i have a follow up appointment next week, I'm gunna push for the referral to the surgeon and take it from there, and see what he/she thinks my best route to go is, but thanks again for the info, have a great day!!!
i know for me sleep has always been a issue but going though withdrawals and no sleep on top of it i was a total mess and to add a small child on it, wow, i just couldn't imagine wow stressed you must be.i can tell you how i manged and maybe some of what i did you can try I'm sure at this point you're will to try just bout any thing. ok for me i did my dinner routine around 630pm had a nice healthy meal, and i had to stop anything with caffeine after 4pm and that meant no chocolate = ( OK so after dinner i did up all the dishes and then spent some time tidying up the house. maybe for you after house work getting out your stroller and takeing the baby for a walk, my thinking here at least for me when i laid down at night i would be thinking about all the stuff i had to do, so going to bed knowing i didn't have a sink full of dishes waitting for me in the morning kind of slowed down my rush thoughts in my head, and maybe for you have some exercise and fresh air would be both good for you and your baby. then i would do bath time i found for me a hot shower helped with all my body aches and god knows i was feeling every ache and pain when i stopped the pain meds, my teeth were so sore because as you know pain meds mask all those ongoing issues you would be feeling if you weren't using pills. OK sorry off track a little. ok i found something about a hot shower or even a bath and raising my body temp then trying to go to sleep with a fan blowing cool air on me makes me have a light headed feeling and it just gives me the edge to feel sleepy and fall asleep, for me staying asleep was a whole other issue, still is today i can't recall the last time i slept straight though the night and I'm not the 1 with babies, mine our teenagers. oh ya just a bit of info I'm also 36. another thing for me i love to read, i find doing that every night before i go to bed it makes my eyes feel heavy then it's off to bed for me. if all else fails i do know some people will take benadryl, i wanna say 50mg. please do not hold me to that dose. and then it also become the habit of reaching for a pill to solve an issue i know that song and dance but i know for me i just kept feeling like if i can just reset my internal clock i could get some much needed sleep. and you sure are right i know for me if I'm lacking sleep I'm a royal ***** I'm cranky i am short fused i become very emotional. I'll cry easy then all the self blame comes out and before i know it I'm having my very own pitty party. so on that note just know your not alone maybe some things i do you can try and maybe it will bring you some relief, i wish you much luck!!!! i would say it would get better with time and I'm sure it will but for my self I'm still dealing with this issue myself. best of luck to both of us...have a great day stay strong when you feel weak just look into your child's eyes and you know you will feel that unconditional love and you'll make it though.
The Following User Says Thank You to froglady6g For This Useful Post: Tysmom1 (04-28-2012)
Hey, how was your day today, hope you made it through okay. Sorry last night was so stressful. Don't feel bad about not dealing with stressful people such as parents or siblings during this time. You have to think about whats best for you and what you can handle, and they'll just have to get over it.
The crappy sleep can last for a while, right now since your not sleeping at night, try to go back to doing it like you do when your baby was a newborn, nap during the day when he does, that way you can get some sleep.
Don't worry about symptoms that you havn't gotten yet, you may never get them, you weren't on the drugs very long. If you stress yourself out worrying about all the symptoms you might get, it'll just be harder to cope with what your going through. Take it easy on yourself and just deal with how your doing each day a day at a time.
Hi kat. Not doing so hot. Having a lot of pain. I have an appt today to get adjusted but don't see how that's gonna help scoliosis. Whatever. It's been all I can do to take care of my son.
Finally had rls for the last two nights so I'm exhausted. I'm just ready to give up!
its no fun thats for sure. i'll never forget what it was like, and i dont want to. there were many times i wanted to throw in the towel, but just had to keep grinding. i was determined to break this addiction before it permanently broke me. gota go to work but im pullin for you
I know this is hard, and it hurts, and it sucks...but don't give up. You've come so far, you don't want to have to start all over again. I hope the adjustment helped you some today.
Try to hang in there, the RLS is the worst, when you get past that, you start to see the light at the end of the tunnel.
WONDERFUL!!!!!! It's hard but I have see people do it time and time again!! You should be proud of yourself....quite an accomplishment...........but keep doing what you're doing!!! My son was killed last year in a one-car accident. 25 yrs old...told the story in length on this board. Xanax an alcohol was his choice. And it was the cause of his accident. Every time I come to this board and read what you have written...I am so proud and happy for you!!!! I don't even know you but you will be in my prayers from now on........Please stay sober.....sobriety is worth living!!!!! Good Job my friend!!!!!!
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The following 5 users give hugs of support to: flintrock froglady6g (05-01-2012), icehouse3z (04-30-2012), katlin09 (04-30-2012), KennyD1 (05-05-2012), Tysmom1 (05-01-2012)
Hi everyone! Thank you so much for the words of encouragement and support. Flintlock, I'm going to go back and read ur posts soon as I'm done here. I had no idea about your son and I am so terribly sorry for your loss. Truly. I have three children and can't imagine the pain of losing any of them.
The bad news is, rls againast night so I didn't get any sleep again. The good news is, I haven't given up and I won't! I had an appt yesterday, as you mentioned kat, to get adjusted. He ended up not adjustin me because of my pain level. He put me on elavil, robaxin, and prednisone. The pred is just for a week. He said to see if that gets me out of pain, or at least lessens it, then we will adjust next week. So my back and hip do feel a little better today so that's good. I'm just REALLY REALLY sleepy. Thanks to all for keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.
Quick question. I've been to AA and NA and didn't click with it. Does anyone know anything about SMART recovery, that could fill me in. I googled it but was left feeling like it was AA, minus the twelve steps. Did I get that right or do I need more explanation? Thanks in advance!
well the 4 months opiate free officially turned into 5 months opiate free. i never thought i could do it, but i did. i tried and failed tried and failed so many times it was gettin redic. i was losing hope. i still had the desire to quit that burned in me. i told myself i would never give up on myself. for anybody out there, and i know there are, i know how you feel, and it can be done. 6 months ago no way would i thought id be typing this. but here iam, back to reality. just dont give up on urself, your worth it. take care yall
ice
The Following User Says Thank You to icehouse3z For This Useful Post: froglady6g (05-06-2012)
Congratulations ice!!!! I'm so proud of you! You must be, and should be, so proud of yourself!!!! Keep up whatever it is that you're doing. It's working!
Kelly
The Following User Says Thank You to Tysmom1 For This Useful Post: icehouse3z (05-06-2012)
i have always gotten clean then relapse over and over again, and i always say nope i got it this time then boom something happens and I'm getting high again i think for me i use the help of methadone and i get so tired of driving to the clinic everyday. it's been months sense I've been able to sleep in. so this time I'm doing the groups so i can get take home bottles, because i know the pattern i seam to be on this time I'm trying to change things so this time i can stay clean, wish me luck so far so good but i am at the point of being sick and tired of getting up every morning early and taking the 30 min drive there and 30 mins back home. i have to do 1 group a week for 4 weeks then i can put in for a take home bottle i thought i had only 1 more group to do but due to the fact i forgot to sign in last week i didn't get the credit for being there and it's my word against the group leader, even i told her what we talked about nope i didn't sign in i don't get the credit so i have to start my 4 consecutive groups all over again it's gets me so frustrated and i feel like OK you are a drug addict you have a history of lying so we don't believe you, not a dam thing i can do ,,,see why i get so discouraged and say **** it slowly taper me off the methadone i'm done, and then i use again it's a pattern, and this time I'm going to try my damest bite my tongue which i find very hard and just restart the groups so in 4 weeks i can sleep in on Sunday and have my 1st take home bottle, if i believed in praying i think i would be asking for patients thanks for letting me vent, Heidi
The following user gives a hug of support to froglady6g: icehouse3z (05-13-2012)
hey all, first off happy mothers day to all the mothers out there. this is the first mothers day ive been through sober in 7 years. im no longer numbed out. and ive had a heavy heart all day. she passed on a few years ago, long story short we never were that close, raised by my dad, but still. shes been on my mind alot today. i know this will pass, just needed to get it out there. still going strong, nearing 6 months
Hang in there Ice. Close or not I'm sure your mom loved ya. And you've got tons to be proud of yourself for the great job your doing. Lost my mom last year, we weren't close either, kinda feels weird this year.
kat
The Following User Says Thank You to katlin09 For This Useful Post: icehouse3z (05-13-2012)
hi ice,
im sorry to hear that you are feeling the way you are. i must say i was happy to see that you are nearing 6 months clean though. being a mother myself, i can tell you that i know my children love me even when they dont say it. its just an instinct. my oldest wont speak to me but i know its to make her dad happy. one day she will come to me.. and she will know that i will accept her with open arms. mothers know how theyre kids are, ffeelings, etc..im sure your mom knew you loved her in the only way that you were capable of at the time. our hind sight is always 20 20. try not to beat yourself up too much. the fact that you are clean and living your life for the greater good today, is making her smile down from above im sure. i hope you are feeling a little bit better todAY.
hugs!
The Following User Says Thank You to Tysmom1 For This Useful Post: icehouse3z (05-14-2012)
hey all, just wanted to check in, im doin fine. like i said, i dont count the days anymore, all i know is im close to half a year clean. it can be done. keep tryin.
best wishes,
ice
The following user gives a hug of support to icehouse3z: SanyBelle (05-24-2012)
Re: 4 months free of the opiate shackles 
