jazzcat

hi princess, read your post... Good for you deciding to stay away from coke! Your life will be happier without it, I am an ex-junkie myself.I want to warn you about listening to all sorts of **** people are going to tell you, including me (haha) trust yourself. It is not hard to quit drugs, modify behavior etc. All sorts of cats from aa and na don't want you to belive this, they will tell you that if you don't belive what they do ,or work their "program" that you will fail miserably! "jails, institutions,blah blah.." You wil quit when you are are ready. I quit junk one and a half years ago. I did then NA thing but disagreed with the disease model of addiction and the whole facism in a velvet glove cult philosophy. People are going to give me **** for saying this because I am thinking independantly, and independant thought is the enemy of twelve step. You must submit your mind/will! Or you won't be able to stay off drugs! (that is undelying theme, common to all cults actually) The truth is I found it much easier to stay of drugs after I stopped going to NA and hearing all these drug obsessed people living in the past, afraid to let go of their addicitons and move on with their lives. NA was feeding my addiction! It is the great unspoken truth that twelve steppers have a love/hate relationship with drugs that they won't let go of.They don't want to use anymore except for the odd relapse some of them, because they don't want to get hurt anymore, but they maintain and create an atmosphere of drug nostalgia! That is the real requirment for membership, the desire to keep using; having drugs remain the dominant theme in your life. I started to fall into the trap, but from the beginng I could see what was up. Cults have their appeal though, especially to a person with addiction history, all that stuff you have to depend on to keep you sober! Except of course your own free will! I know I am ranting,but I don't want to see anyone that can stop drugs and move on with their lives get sucked into the NA obsession with the whole thing, it will do more harm than good. Just wait and see the responses that this posts get, and think about it for yourdelf, you will see what I mean! also, check out rational recovery on the net. Good on 'ya If you think you can do it you will, don't let antone talk you out of your own responibillity and power!