Hi -- Welcome. Lots of great people here.
The amount of alcohol that we consume isn't as important as what it does to us when we drink. You say that you "need" the alcohol to sleep. Do you think about it during the day?? Do you have cravings for it??? Only YOU can decide if you're a problem drinker.
Two or 3 drinks per night isn't really excessive, but it's the fact that it's every night and you NEED it. You may not have crossed that invisible line yet, but you sound like you may be close.
Can you make a committment to NOT drink before bed? Sure, you may have a couple of sleepless nights, but you need to convince yourself that you DON'T need it to sleep. I would also suggest AA meetings --- it's not full of trenchcoat-wearing, brown-bottle carrying winos. There are people like you and I, who have the disease of alcoholism.
I'm more concerned about your determination that you can't sleep without it. That is an alcoholic's thinking. We drink because we can't cope. We drink for the feeling that "all is well." We drink to escape, to stuff emotions, to not have to face life on life's terms. Please, be careful. And try it for a week without drinking, please??? Peace, Lee
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