Good post at the top of this board titled, "Suggestions for Tapering."
Although I tapered, the first cuts my doctor made were too large and I was thrown into full withdrawal. Not something we forget very easily. I took a LOT of hot baths, and tried what I could to keep that anxiety at bay. To do this, I had to find ways to keep mentally and physically active according to my ability. Played a lot of solitaire on the computer. Swept the floors, cleaned drawers and such. Also, practicing brathing techniques (like Lamaze) helped to calm me.
And although I know you don't want to, talking to my doctor was the BEST choice I made. He wasn't shocked, only willing to help me. Sure, I was embarrassed and sobbing as I spit my story out, but once it was out, what a weight was lifted from me! he sat with my husband and me and together we wroked out a slow tapering plan. Reconsider your stance here, okay?
In the meantime, I am rooting for you and hoping for only the best for you.