Join Date: Apr 2013
Re: Plan to cold turkey from heroin- have questions
Hi, ouch! I can certainly relate to the situation you are in. Firstly, however, I'm a little confused about your plan. Are you planning to stop the heroine and immediately start the oxy before any withdrawls start and then taper down? I'm thinking that is what you are wanting to do. Firstly I must tell you I live in a place that has a very different approach to addiction so many may not agree with me. But, coming off drugs should not, and does not have to be, a nightmarishly painful experience...meaning a s l o w taper and, truthfully, I doubt that the amount of oxys you have will allow for that. But, yes, I definitely think you should take that route. I've suffered through countless painful, sweaty, jerky, withdrawls too sick to get out of bed even to vomit. Not being able to get through the withdrawls, largely due to work, etc. kept me addicted for years. Methadone seems to have a bad reputation over there, hmm, why? For me, it has given me back my life. I've been on it for 5 years now and, while I have often considered going off, the risk of relapse and the inevitable consequences are just not worth it. But it's free here and available at every chemist (with rx, obviously) and there is no set time limit when you must get off it. You are not pressured to do so and if you do taper, it is done very slowly, up to the individual, but usually 2.5mg a week. I tapered from 105mg to 85 at that rate and was even uncomfortable with that. I couldn't imagine what it's like to go at the rates I've been reading here. Obviously, I'm a big fan of methadone, and my first thought for you was "why not methadone?" But, after reading of the difficulties faced by those in other areas, I can understand.
Now, as for your next issue---the boyfriend, yes, I know just what you mean about the consequences of honesty with regards to drug use. I too have had it preached to me that I must tell everyone I am close to, my employer, doctors, etc. and wow, how freeing it will be. Unfortunately, for me, it rarely ended up that way. I was judged, shunned, ridiculed, considered "less than", not trusted, etc, etc. I'm sure you know what I mean. Very few people truly understand addiction and, as for your relationship, that's a tough one. If you don't tell him and he finds out, it will be bad. If you do tell him, it could very well be bad. It's kind of like the old affair issue, to tell or not to tell. If you are able to detox successfully without him knowing, I really don't see what the harm is in the overall huge picture. Just because you are uncomfortable about how he will react does not mean you must question the entire relationship either. We all have secrets in our lives--even him. Nobody knew I was on drugs either and it's a dreadful secret to have to hide. I mean, just how many times in one year can a person have the flue? Interestingly, no one really cares that I'm on methadone and as a result, I don't really care who knows. So much easier.
OK, enough from me. That probably provided no help at all, but hopefully it did, even just a little!