Originally Posted by Nick1982
I'm starting to doubt my whole life, cause every thing good that happens to me just gets jumped all over and ruined...right back from when the earliedt age I can remember everything always goes wrong, and I can't take no more...that's why I turned to cocaine in the first place, at first it supressed all the hatred I had for my life, now it is the main cause!!
Hello Nick1982 and welcome.
I believe that you hit the nail right on the head here.
Identifying negativity and associating it with the narcotic is an important step,which will need to be placed into perspective at different intervals of your recovery.
Are you prepared to do things you've never done before,in order to have something unattained before?
The first step is realizing that you are powerless over this drug and that no matter how it is spinned,re-entry into this lifestyle will always be a losing battle.
We're here to help.
Please feel free to respond at your earliest convenience,if you're up to it.