Re: off dope, again
Nice to meet you and welcome to the board. :-)
Looks like you have the logistics of withdrawal down pat. I am wondering, though, if you have ever maintained some aftercare? It is so important. As we move towards recovery we must, absolutely must, discover why we use drug hazes to cope with life. Addiction is an unhealthy way of coping and becomes a total habit. Our thinking has to get realigned. We need to learn (or re-learn) healthy coping skills.
All addicts have unresolved issues. Perhaps grief, perhaps hurt, perhaps loss, perhaps a lot of things, but all have fear. We fear giving up the drug because we fear Life without it. We fear facing our demons. We fear withdrawal. We run to the drug over and over because we have programmed our brains to respond to any stress at all by using.
Good thing is that we can retrain our brain to respond in healthier coping skills.
Some make use of AA or NA, twelve step programs. For me, I worked with a Clinical Social worker. It was intense for sure. I had to dig deep to let the hurt and grief out of me. I cried, I wailed, I learned how to feel the emotions and deal with them. It was a time of tremendous learning for me.
I stopped abusing drugs 6+ years ago. I am happy, I participate in Life and I know joy and laughter again. I handle things, both good and bad in a much healthier way with clearer perspective.
Please, if you are not working a program or getting some counseling help, do so. We can not be an island in handling our addictions. We need others for support and encouragement. Hoping to hear that you are not only restoring your physical being, but good thinking also.
Rooting for you