The selfish drunk thanks you - Addiction & Recovery Message Board

GinaLee · 03-07-2003, 03:25 PM

The personal addresses you have made to me (via others' posts) are hard to read but nice at the same time. You don't know me yet you have shown empathy for me and I do appreciate it. I really do.

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Gina

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Dawn in NH · 03-14-2003, 02:32 AM

Hi Gina -
I so feel for you. Alcohol is not my drug of choice, but I know your struggle. Addiction is addiction. You have seen my other posts, so I won't get into it in depth, but mine is narcotics for fibromyalgia.

My dad was an alchey - he died at 43 from lung cancer/heart attack. I grew up hating him, and he got the last laugh by not telling me he was sick. I didn't see him for a year before he died, so I didn't know. We tried so many times to make peace, then he'd take off to Alabama, Florida, anywhere but here in NH.

Addiction is definitely hereditary. I was wondering - do you have any addicts in your family? Mine is full of them on Dad's side. He died at 43, his sister and my best friend Aunt Judy died at 38 - both from Lung cancer. I'm 35 and denial is something!! Still haven't quit smoking.

Anyway friend, hang in there!

Hugs from NH - Dawn

GinaLee · 03-14-2003, 07:08 AM

Yes ma'am...I understand the "it'll never happen to me" syndrome. I've got it down pat. I'm a serious near chain smoker (haven't crossed the line to full-fledge chain smoker) and I know the danger. I'm sitting here so damned hungover from a night of stupidity. Thank God these mornings only happen about once a month...maybe twice. I've got to stop this!
I have read many of your posts and I do know the hell you are putting yourself through. It began as a voluntary action that has spiraled out of control to a continuing voluntary involuntary action.
We must really hate ourselves more than we realize. Either that or we must not have that much feeling as we think we do for the ones that have to see us do it.

Thank you for responding.

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Gina