Re: uncontrolled high blood pressure
Yes, I have been in a similar boat as you! Am only 31 and have felt like I was losing my mind, still do at times, but things are much better. I also have anxiety/panic disorder. What I realized with me is that the anxiety medication increased my blood pressure. In fact, often spiked them. You can speak to your Dr. about an MRI of your brain to be on the safe side, which my Doctor did and it was normal. Unfortunately anxiety/panic can send quick jolts of adrenaline to your heart, which is why your doctor has you on a very good medication for your heart. It also blocks the stress hormone. My blood pressure stabilized again once I got off the anxiety meds, but I do have lorazepam as needed. I haven't taken that in awhile because am on the same blood pressure med you are on, but in a very low dose. I have my days where I wonder if my world is going to come crashing down, but your diet is extremely important. You must be religious about your diet. Exercise with the recommendations your doctor gives and rest when necessary. Seek counseling, support through your Church, and any other support you can get from people that will be there for you. What helped me test anxiety from my blood pressure being really high was to not take it so much. It is the most difficult thing, but only take it as often as your doctor recommends. You will find a realistic range. If your blood pressure is high and you panic, then you are most likely going to send adrenaline to your heart again. I was heading to the ER one morning and took my blood pressure monitor with me. I took a lorazepam just in case it was anxiety and sure enough before I was going to go into the ER I checked my blood pressure and it was 127/77.
What I have learned is that if it is really your heart, then lorazepam won't help. Also, the medication you are on should redirect the adrenaline from your heart, so if you feel anxious don't take your blood pressure. Maybe go for a short walk, listen to some music, or do something that will clear your mind. I know, easier said than done. I've been there, but if you don't then you will have a high reading and make it higher. My wife has great blood pressure and she did an experiment with me. She said I am going to take my blood pressure and get a good reading. She said then I am going to sit here for 5 minutes and think all negative thoughts and raise it. I said impossible, but by doing that she raised her blood pressure 20 points. She said now she is going to go back and think positive thoughts.
It dropped back down again, but also with symptoms of dizziness and feeling sick. Anxiety, stress, and panic are more powerful than we could ever imagine. Xanax is similar to lorazepam and can be very addictive. I have been there and I know it is the closest thing to torture you can think of. I sometimes still find myself reverting back, but you must find ways to take your mind elsewhere. Let me know if you have any questions about my experience or if you need additional support. I also noticed that just adding the smallest wrong thing to my diet and I could have an off the chart reading. Diet, exercise, the right medication, yoga, counseling, stress management, getting out of your head, and the list goes on. You shall overcome! I know the fear, but you will beat it...