
Hiyall! I was 18 until I turned 40. Funny ain't it? Age issues never bothered me. Getting older didn't enter my mind. I was 18. I felt 18. I acted 18. I think I even looked 18. Then I turned 40 and suddenly I realised (and this had nothing to do with the magical number at all, since I take no heed of birthdays!) that I feel a hundred

. I kinda went from sixty to zero overnight. Full of worries, aches and pains, regrets, fatigued. How on earth will I be as I get older. I am now 46 and feel like hell. Many doctor visits, few answers. Can't watch late-night moves anymore. Have to be in bed and asleep by a certain time otherwise I feel like hell the next day. Oh dear! this is awful - but I am relieved to know I am not alone. I sometimes think it would have been better if I aged graduallly and with awareness that I was aging. This 18 year old feeling deserting me so suddenly has left me in shock!