Angel, I cant share thoughts, which are continous and disrupting my every day living. Im in the same boat as you, and cant understand it. Im afraid of death, a little about my death, and an overwhelming fear of those i loves departures. I dont know if its the fear of pain ill endure, the fear of lonliness, the fear of abandoment, the fear of not having anyone, etc..... I know my mom also had this fear around the time my started, 28ish, yet hers went away on its own. MINE CONSUMES ME.