Obsessed with dying/thoughts of death and dying young
Ever since hitting my twenties i have been convinced i will die before the age of 30. My thoughts have always been in a motor accident on a motorway and convinced that is the way i am going to die. I am now 27 and for what ever reason i can sense death getting closer.
Thing is, i do not think about killing myself of even want to. I have a great loving family, a girlfriend, friends, good looks, money, travel the world and most things a typical person would be happy about but still think i am going to die.
I have told my mum these thing for years and she gets upset as to why i think this, her brother used to say the same thing and he was killed at 24 while away traveling.
I have thought about what music i would like at my funeral, who to leave what in my will, life after death and so on.
I am obsessed with viewing pictures of dead people, seeing them alive and now knowing they are dead. Also reading books by people who are now dead.
Why do i have this obsession about dying? have i something wrong with me or does anyone else have these thoughts...?