What is there to look forward to?
13 -Yey..I'm a teenager
16 - Yey...I can drive!
18 -Yey...I'm an adult
21 -Yey...I can drink legally (drank from the age of 17)
25 -Yey....I feel more like an adult...I have bills and kids
30 - Yey...getting respect at work because I am not a kid
35 - Um...shoot, I'm almost at midlife....I'm a drunk now...and my kids are out of control...now I have more bills and more stress
40 - YUK...I'm old (I say this because when my b/f turned 40 and I was 29...He WAS old to me
41 - YUK...I'm a trainwreck from drinking and smoking so I quit drinking
45 - YUK...Still not drinking but smoking like a chimney and since I drank most of my life away...all the time I thought I was an adult...UM..no, I'm just growing up now
46 - (present)...YUK....what is there left to live for? What is there to look forward to? Is it the disease I will die from...OH...I have 50 to look forward too! OH-YEY.
Moral of the story...life goes by fast...I was always wishing for the next phase. Once I got to the next phase I would think the previous phase was better. Maybe I should be on the depression board?