Sandyspen

G' Morning,

We are entering our 3rd week with Mom and buspirone. She is still so agitated, I really wonder if it will work. The doctor had said 2-3 weeks. Does anyone else have experience with this particular med?

I finally called her hmo yesterday and changed doctors. That was a process......had to file form that I was guardian and yada yada. The new doc won't take affect till 4/1. I'll be so glad to take her to someone else. We called for 4 days when she first went into the AFH for some type of medication. She was aggressive and hitting the staff. The doc didn't return our calls until I called the HMO for assistance. Now, G was telling me yesterday that she's faxed countless forms to him that the health dept requires and he won't sign and return them. Just ignores them. This is ridiculous. She hasn't had a shower in 3 weeks because she's too aggressive to "force" her to do anything.

Some days are better than others, but often it's the same crying and begging to go to her home and live alone.

Now, she is just obsessed with the idea that the other people are stealing all of her stuff! The worst part is, she's hiding everything from them. So every time I visit, it's a wild search to find where she's hidden her own stuff. Once she hides it, she forgets it, then...........someone stole it! She rotates her clothes in the drawers constantly, covering them with newspapers and books, etc. to hide them. But, she's hiding them from herself.

I made photo album filled with old pictures of her, her mom and dad, and my brothers when we were much younger. She was so thrilled she cried. When I visited yesterday, she was crying because it was gone and she knew the staff stole it, along with a litany of other missing items.

After I searched every crack and cranny of that room, I gave up. I thought perhaps someone else had related to the photos and carried it to their own room. I was trying to calm mom and vowed that I'd search the entire house when I noticed that her yarn basket was heaping over, yarn hanging over the side. I knew she didn't have that much yarn. I pulled out the top skeins of yarn and beneath that,,,,,,,,,everything mom was missing. Photo album, make-up, coloring book, cookies, etc.

I did hide her suit case because that had been her original hiding place, but she just finds another. While I'm there, I try to make it "homey," placing items on the dresser and chests and bed. But each time I come it is stripped clean and hidden away. It's like she isn't going to allow herself to be comfortable there for fear of someone stealing something.

When I showed her that they hadn't stolen anything, she had hidden it, she became outraged. Needless to say, my visit was cut short because she was angry and crying and yelling at me.

I can't wait for the doc appt on 4/1. Does this paranoia about "stealing" continue like a phase, or is it a sign that her medication isn't working properly. "G" just wants a doc that she can contact and get a response. I don't blame her.

Hopefully soon.....

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Sandy