Jess22

Thank You to all who wrote and said such nice things to me. Mom had a very nice service all the things she would have loved. We also had a dvd of all her pictures as a girl and as our mother, grandmother, and in the ending a AD patient. We wanted that picture to end the reel because it really was "our" mom in the end days. In the picture she had a UK wildcats hat turned backwards on her head and in her housecoat at my table she was smiling but she looked so frail and pitiful. She would put hats on alot because my mom always loved a hat. ha ha Today has been a week and Easter was her favorite time of the year. I miss her sooooo much but I am trying to remember that she had suffered and was not in a good place even though I could touch her and see her everyday. I hope all of you will have blessings in all your efforts throught the pain and good days. You all deserve it, I may not write for awhile because I just need to remove myself from as much pain as possible but I want to thank all of you for being so kind. I have my memories, my mementos, my pictures and her properties I purchased some time ago. I really thought I would hate that since I only did it to get medicaid for her but now it's good I did. They go back in my ancestry many generations so it's fitting I suppose and Lord she loved that heritage stuff so I think she would be proud. Now both my parents are gone, they will never see my boys marry or have children etc. it feels very lonely since Im only 45 but nothing I can do about that now, my parents are together agian I know they are in heaven (sorry if it offends) but I believe that. So Im going to try to focus on good things and live my life now. I feel for all of you who are still in this battle god knows it was a rough, hard and painful road. My thoughts are with you all.......................jess