My mom passed away 5/11. I've tried to post a couple times since then, and just haven't been able to do it. Usually, end up in a flood of tears.
The last week was so hard, to watch her struggle for air. I didn't think it would be, but as Jess said.....it was a relief to have the suffering finally end. I still tremble inside when I think of it. Old memories of AD and all that happened to her come into mind every single day. It's a struggle every day, to keep my insides calm and try to stay busy.
I was reading a few posts last night and it made me realize how much we've all been through. I can't tell you what a difference you've all made in my life. 2 years ago, when I first came here, I was so lost and confused and feeling totally alone. Without everyone's advice, concern, suggestions and comments, I don't think I'd have made it through this. I was a total basket-case by the time I found these boards. I didn't have a clue how to cope.
You helped me learn to enter Mom's world instead of forcing her to return to mine. That brought peace to both of us and helped us endure.
I want to say thank you, to everyone! Martha, Barb, Barbara, Wannabe, AngelBear and Jess. I know there were so many others but I can't think straight right now.
Thank you for being there for me. I hope when I'm feeling better, I can help others as well.
Oh honey I feel for you. I'm so sorry you've lost your mom. It's very difficult to lose your mom I know. And I know right now it doesn't seem like the pain will ever subside. But pain will be replaced with lots of fond and happy memories. You'll always miss your mom terribly. It's been almost 14 years since mine has passed and I still miss her. But when I think of her now, I smile because I know she's still with me in my heart and soul.
Someday, I'll see her again and there will be no pain and suffering as she had here.