suncat...I do understand the stress all this is causing you personally...I am much in the same boat.
My husband (62) has been collecting unemployment most of the year also...his job as a surveyor for more than 45 years came to a screeching halt here in Michigan...as did MANY other construction/labor/etc. workers.
There seems to be no indication of his job resuming anytime soon...and he's thinking about starting his SS. I work full time in education...5 days a week, and 3 nights...plus have my own business doing wedding flowers. I keep very busy so I don't have to think about everything that is going on in my life!
My grown children and I have noticed several changes in his behaviors/habits for about 6 months now. He is in remission with leukemia...(2 bouts with chemo)...and at first we thought perhaps the changes were from the chemo.
His Mom passed away one year ago...his Father just this past Saturday
...both had been diagnosed with Alzheimer's 4 years ago...so we see the same pattern starting to emerge.
I am not new to this disease. My own mom is in her 10th year after diagnosis...barely hanging on in the last stage. This is all very scary and intimidating...even tho is has been a huge part of my life for quite a while!
I was thinking about your husband leaving the keys in the door...that, in itself, is not really such a rare occurance! (Probably had that ice cream cone grasped in the other hand...melting away!) I've done this myself! When he starts not knowing how to work those keys in the locks...THAT is the problem. I can't tell you how many times I had to drive out to Mom's to help her get into her house........
Your question was "has anyone else had these feelings?".....Yup! I'm worried more than I can let on to any family or friends........but they DO seem to know. I know my kids, sister, and close friends are seeing stress challenges that have manifested in health issues....so be very careful and try to allow yourself to have no guilt in decisions you have to make in your husband's care!
There are many shoulders among these pages...all of us have been brought together by the same challenges. Each of us seem to be dealing with different stages of this horrendous disease...it masquerades into many emotions and actions that may be different from person to person...but the results are always the same. I've watched this devour 3 loved ones...and now see it starting to gnaw at my husband.............it IS a blessing to have somewhere to talk with others, so please post often.........we're here for you........Pam