| | Moms getting worse
So i see my mother getting worse and theres nothing i can do about it but love her and pray for her shes scared almost everyday , i WAS praying the other nite and i started to cry histarically thinking how could i ask god to keep her here how unfair and selfish is that of me but i dont want my mom to go i love her so much and were getting ready to move into a beautiful home and i want her there i always promised someday i would put her in a nice house and we are finally there and she prolly wont even know it , or understand it , it hurts so bad i dont want to let her go but i hate to see her not no any one , i hate this disease i hate it i wish they could find a cute and make it affordable to people not jut the rich , today she keeps wanting me to take her home and she says it with tears in her eyes , the home shes talking about is of course not there shes talking about her child hood home in ky but i keep saying u are home mama and u are safe with ur daughter lori ,,, this morning she didnt want to take her meds thats the first time she kept holding her tongue out tight so i couldnt get them in there , i eventually did after some coaxin and talking , ive been taking care of her and my father for 11 years he died in 2003 he had the same disease i wouldnt change a thing im glad i could be here for both of them they were always there for me in every way a parent can be , theres memories i made just last week my mama said to me when i was putting her to bed , uve been so merciful to me and good to me i want u to know i love u from the top of my head to the bottom of me feet and itll never be forgotten and we hugged and i cried and put her to bed telling her how much i loved her and how thankful i am to have her in my life , those moments right there are what make it all worth while , and the ones i pray i alwaysssss rememeber !!! i love you mama so very much ,,,, i geuss ive rambeled on long enough , thanks for listening everyone !!!