Why am I so angry?
Today at school a lot of my anger at the other kids came to a head. In my mind (which is ridden with OCD, mind you), I started looking at this particular student who I find annoying and saying terrible things that I won't repeat--in essence, whether I meant it or not, I was subjecting his very humanity in my head. I know now that I don't really mean those things, but it does resemble this terrible anger that stays inside me all the time. I'm resentful that most of the other kids are normal and seem happy--without the difficulties I experience every day at school. It's hard for me to even breathe I'm so worried and depressed at school, and it's not like that for most other kids. I also remember how much kids hated me for being effeminate in junior high, and how they still probably think I'm just plain weird, or whatever. (I can't care about that, though...I am what I am.) Anyway, I wish there was some way I could deal with my anger, but I feel sometimes like it's limitless and endless and for the dumbest reasons. I don't know what to do, and advice would be appreciated.
Thanks, Sunny
[This message has been edited by moderator1 (edited 02-19-2003).]
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