I feel insane - Anger Management Message Board

melissa79 · 01-17-2003, 10:46 AM

Im Melissa 24 and I tell ya what I have so much rage and anger inside of me that I just want to shut myself out of this world. I hate everyone at times. Im racists at times. I blurt things out with out speaking . I hate things when I really love them at times. I love to argue. Im on medicine cause I have aniexty and panic and depression . all of a sudden . I was dignosed 2 years ago . and I have admitted that im an ANGRY person. I feel like i can kill at some times but my brain tells me that its stupid.I belive alot of this has to do with me always feeling sick . and not being my normal self anymore . IF THERE IS REALLY A THING AS NORMAL. someone help me I need friends someone I can relate to and talk to not be TOLD cause I can admit i have a problem and realize that its wring . but in all reality Im still confused.

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MELISSA POTUZNIK

chiron · 01-17-2003, 11:22 AM

Just a short reply to what you have posted.

Twenty-four is the beginning of a good age period in that you are beginning to wake up to what life has to offer. Around the age of twenty-seven, life has a way of taking hold as a journey in consciousness. There are several ways to understand at what you are expressing.

One is, when you are "sick of being sick, you are on your way to recovery." This is a very old adage. Try entering "sick of being sick" as an Internet search and see what you come up with. Find what you can relate too as problem areas in your own life experience.

And two, remember that there is no coming to conciousness except through pain.

melissa79 · 01-17-2003, 11:33 AM

THANKS! Im not sure if that really helped me . I have had anger since I was young. and it seems that it has gotten worse since all these meds I take and all the bad things that keep happening in my life.

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MELISSA

Bubbly20 · 02-04-2003, 09:49 AM

Melissa

I can relate to what youre saying..
I always used to be an angry person, then all of a sudden the panic, anxiety and depression struck and i no longer felt i had the right to be angry. But - now and then it returns and i feel myself getting so so so angry and wanting to scream and run away and just go AAAAAAAAAAAARGH!! Like you, im sick of being sick...and thats what gets me angry alot. Its frustration.

Fear and Anger are actually very closely related in the brain. You said you are an angry person..do u think its anger at what youre mind has been through, or anger since you were little..?

have you had any counselling?

Take care
Bubbly x

Nanook · 02-12-2003, 06:38 PM

Hi Melissa
This is my very first response to anyone. I'm new to the whole internet experience. I hope you find my response helpful in some small way.

Something to remember is that anger is a secondary emotion to "hurt". It may be beneficial to you to explore that hurt with a professional. I don't know your complete story, but suspect that you have been hurt badly somewhere along the line and need to deal with it.
P.S.
I'm no doctor nor do I play one on TV, but I do know a little about "hurt" and "anger" and their relationship.