Hey everyone, thanks for the suggestions. I have tried to take time out for myself but it hasnt helped much. I, for some reason, allow perfect strangers who might be walking too slow, or taking to long looking at the spaghetti sauce to ruin my time out. And please, don't get me started on traffic and other drivers!
One method I am trying now is music, or sounds rather. You know, rain, thunder, oceans and the like. I thought maybe putting them on my MP3 player and shutting my eyes for a few minutes might help.
My doctor had put me on Darvocet for headaches and unfortunately I have found that sometimes, taking one of those helps because they make me relax. I know I said I dont want to carry a scrip around like a roll of lifesavers, but if there is a med out there that will calm me down, I may just be game. It's hard living day to day constantly seeing red, yelling, rubbing my face and wanting to scream or break something. It comforts me to know that I am not the only one, I just wish I knew how to control it all the time.
Again, Thanks to all of you--it kind of helps!