Where do I start??
I find myself shouting and arguing with my partner most of the time.
We have been together on and off for 2 years now and during this time we have had to deal with a great number of things that have made it difficult...to put it mildly.
My partner suffers from OCD (contamination issues) and it has been difficult trying to adjust to the way I now find myself living, washing my hands 20 times a day and having to change my clothes before being able to sit on the sofa ( just a couple of examples)
My partner is a good person and has a heart the size of a football pitch so why do I find myself taking my anger out on her.
I find myself out of work at the moment and this is something very new to me as I have always been in employment and been able to provide for my family.
Not working has meant my self esteem and confidence are at an all time low and I know that getting a job will help and I have and still am trying to rectify this.
Not working and being able to provide financially is despairing as I am always having to justify asking for money, my partner has helped enormously and I am forever in her debt (no pun intended) but it is only a matter of time before the pressure gets to us.
Being out of work makes it difficult to fill my days and the boredom turns to anger and that then leads to fights.
The mornings are the worst as that is the time when I should be getting ready to go to the office but find myself sitting around watching daytime TV which is enough to make anyone angry
I really donít know where I am going with this but suppose I am just trying to get this of my chest as they say it helps.
If you have been kind enough to read this far then I thank you and if anyone has any advice then I please reply.