Originally Posted by 2angelsnheaven
BTW....crying is NOT a sign of weakness. Don't ever let anyone tell you or make you think otherwise. Crying means you're smart. Smart enough to control which emotions you choose to take over in a heated situation! Anger is good for removing stains from carpets and cleaning baseboards!
Its so nice having you to talk to. It really is. I did try to explain things to my SO but he said the damage has been done and he doesn't know if he can continue to be with me after the things I have done within my anger fits. I mean, yes I understand where he is coming from, but at the same time, I wouldn't give up as easily. I guess that's the difference between us. So now that he has broken up with me, for the time being anyway, I have been crying a whole lot more because I am scared. He has told me that he hates how I cry so much and that it just makes him feel really bad and crappy. Its kind of like I cannot win. It seems like the only emotion he wants me to have is happy ones. Considering everything that is going on, I don't really have many happy moments.
I have an appointment to see my Dr today. Of course he is not impressed that its "short notice" so he is already going to be in a bad mood. I warned him that we would have an appointment either Monday morning or Tuesday morning and he ended up staying up until 4am so now he is pissy that we have an appointment for 10:45am. Something that I would normally get really mad at because I did warn him, I warned him and reminded him several times, but yet this morning he said that he would like more notice then 2 hrs. I didn't get mad though, I just nicely said "Hun, I did tell you that it would be Monday morning or Tuesday morning and I said that a lot yesterday." He admitted that I told him but thought we would have more notice then that. I dunno how considering my Dr just opened his door at 8am and I got the appointment at 8:30 lol.
Anyway, atleast I am going to see my Dr today and hopefully he can shed some light on this. I am making my SO go in with me to hear everything because I feel like he needs to be apart of this. I want him to hear what the Dr says and everything and hope that it helps him understand whats going on with me!