I don't get no respect
My mom died -yes, I have to use the word died, not passed away, or anything else, in late May, just a couple weeks after her seventy-fourth birthday, and eleven days after my fifty-fourth dirthday. I had to do CPR on her while my dad waited in the front yard for the ambulance. Obviously she didn't make it. What a helluva memory that is! Anyway, I don't get any respect from any member of my family. My dad pretty much ingores me, he's eighty, as do my borthers and sisters. I lost my job -not the first, or maybe even the first-dozenth time - late last year and have been living at home for the past seven months. Now its with my dad, as apposed to mom and dad. He and I have never got along - long story - and I don't care much what happens to him - no love lost obviously -although I do love him, I think. Anyway...here I am living - if you can call it living - at home, and not getting any respect from any member of the family. I have long been the 'Black Sheep' of the family. All the other children are successful and making a good lving, in other words, lots of money. I have always been plagued - another long story - by one mishap or another, etc. etc. etc. I freaking HATE having to stay here!!! Especially since my dad had a damn girlfriend - a widow - just a couple months after the woman he was married to for firty-six years died. If I could save any freaking money I would move the hell out of here and not look back, but I can't. So what do I do? It makes me angry as hell the way they -and everybody else, at work and etc. treat me!!! I feel like taking it out on someone! My life is in the crapper! I lost my mom, have no wife, or even a girlfriend for the past six or seven years, and have nothing to live for. What do I do to get rid of this intense anger? I would appreciate you input.
Last edited by Enowil; 07-25-2009 at 03:37 PM.