I have been through alot in the last few years of my life with a bad break up and some bad (so called) friends. I started having really bad panic attacks where I couldn't breath and would get dizzy and had bad anxiety all the time. I have done everything naturally for that like cutting all the bad people out and taking some supplements and I always eat healthy and do yoga but even though I am happy with my life now, but something inside is not, and shouldn't think about the past and what people have done to me I get soooo angry still like everyday thinking about it. I just dont know why and I hate to feel this way. I really want to get over it, move on and hope the best for them but I cant for some reason. Why is it still eating me inside? and how can I get it out? I can not stand to feel like this anymore.
My anger for these people also effect my moods in other ways and to other people. I can not trust anyone now for the life of me. I dont let anyone in now and am anti social because Im scared and think everyone is a user, abuser and cannot be trusted. I feel depressed and alone and I cant forgive even though I try. I am very defensive. Very irritable. It effected some of my past relationships and definatly any new ones.
I really need to find peace within myself. If anyone has any suggestions for me would be greatly appreciated. I didn't really know where to go since I dont want to talk to anyone because i cant trust anyone. So here I am.
Someone please have the miracle remedy for me! I just want to be happy and peaceful and I want the hate and anger out of meeeeee. Maybe its not even people, maybe its a chemical imbalance in me. I heard your stress glands can get over worked and just stay in that mode and your adrenalin is always pumping which causes panic attacks and anxiety. I dont know
p.s.
I have tried st jhons wart and had an allergic reaction
I tried gabba, calm, and it almost seems to have made my anxiety worse
I am taking 5htp now and it seems to help a bit
I take a multi, and fish oils, and probiotics