Re: Why cant i stop being so miserable?!
It sounds like you are in a lot of emotional pain and have had a lot of pain in your life. I am so sorry you are hurting. Sometimes anger is a defense mechanism to protect yourself from pain, but it is not healthy to be in the habit of being angry.
If you need someone to talk to, you can pm me. I am married and care about young marriages succeeding. It is hard for everyone, but especially if you have witnessed abuse.