I grew up with an abusive, passive aggressive mother. I was always calm growing up, and dealt with her, and she stopped these ways about a year and a half ago. But since then, I've noticed myself getting angry with her.
(She is the most stupid and ignorant person I know, and due to her awful childhood, she has a habit of pretending that anything bad in the world doesn't exist.) But this has been getting on my nerves so badly, and I've recently started yelling at her, a lot. And though I've never physically hurt her, it's getting really hard to control myself when dealing with her. I can't stand being near her.
I don't love her, I never have. But now that I'm nasty towards her, I'm starting to feel super guilty about it, and I spend almost every night crying from the guilt that comes from the knowledge that I hate her. And I don't know how much longer I can deal with that pain.
How can I control myself and stop being so angry with her?
Last edited by ScarletBallerin; 10-06-2012 at 01:47 PM.