Hello there. I highly believe that I have very bad anger issues. I can control them but it's lucky when I can. If my hair has a little bump when it's in a pony tail, I'll rip the pony tail out and punch myself in the face or slap. I'll clench my fists very tight. Lately, I'll get super random bursts where I want to punch someone. Just thinking about it makes me clench my fists. I don't know if this makes sense to you, but it's kind of hard to explain over typing. I can't stand it either. If I'm sitting in the backseat of my families car, and my parent is driving and they anger me, I'll punch and kick the back of a seat like a little 2 year old. I literally get mad at EVERYTHING. Literally.. When I tell someone something, and they disagree with me or try to prove me wrong, I just want to scream so much at them and tell them that they shouldn't do that.... Help? I just need help to control it.
Well in the 7th grade I did get bullied to the point where I cried every day when I got home. I began to self harm. To this day, every thing gets to me. When someone tells me to be quiet or to stop doing something, I feel like I just got screamed at when I didn't. I feel as if I did everything wrong. To be honest, I'm never happy. It may seem like it, but I'm not. I used to always be with my family and sit in the living room and be active, but now a days, all I do is stay in my room and lay in bed. I don't want to be around any body, I don't want day light. It's very hard to explain how I feel. I feel like crap every day. And I just feel down 24/7. When I'm away from home, at a friends house for example, I'm happy. Because I'm having a good time. But when I get home, BAM. I'm down. Sometimes when I am at a friends house, I'm down. But my friends try to make me happy. Depression? It sucks if I have it.