Regreting my Past... - Anxiety Message Board

Drew H · 12-21-2003, 03:13 AM

Hey all --

2 1/2 years ago, i was into Ectascy use. I would use it every weekend for about 8 months.. thats how long my usage lasted. So in total, i probably did about 90 pills within that time period.
I wasnt addicted whatsoever.. and i know everyone experiments at some point in their life....

Ever since i stopped ( i just didnt want to do it anymore ), my nervous system has never been the same.
Im not even anxious about ANYTHING whatsoever.. but my body always seems to go into full anxiety/panic mode so easily... and i can get out of it.
My muscles get tense, i get waves of 'pain' throughout the body, like my nerves are going on overload....
Its just all out of wack....
I've still accomplished SO much while feeling so terrible over these years..
But.. i would so love to have my old body back.

My doctor has tried anti-anxiolytic drugs on me to no avail...

Can anyone relate with me, or did anyone experience something similar?
And if so... did you finally get back so that you body felt normal again.

Im starting to wonder if im stuck like this.. and now im totally regretting ever doing what i did in the past.

Any support is appreciated...

Drew

monkyfunky · 12-21-2003, 09:20 AM

I've got the same story

Search for my posts on this board you'll see I've just come here too, asking questions about what I've done to myself from ecstasy.

My doctor says I haven't done any damage, just triggered anxiety...

monkyfunky · 12-21-2003, 10:47 AM

Did you suffer from anxiety prior to ever taking ecstasy?

Are you convinced that ecstasy is to blame for your problems? I was for a long time but I have come to realise I had anxiety before ever taking it and that the ecstasy has probably only brought it out.

worrywort · 12-21-2003, 06:06 PM

I can relate, when I was 20 I started using meth and one night I ended up in the e.r with severe chest pains, It was my first attack and of course not my last I am still dealing with anxiety today 6 years later. I know that meth and other drugs are to blame, It helped bring on the anxiety that is for sure. I am on prozac and klonopin and it seems to be working o.k. I wish the best for you. Feel free to talk anytime.

Carly

Drew H · 12-21-2003, 07:24 PM

Thanks monkyfonky, and worrywort --

Yeah i really think that its to blame as well.
I think BEFORE i did that stuff.. i was sort of a nervous kind of person?
and i did have worry's here and there...
So maybe when i did it, it really switched my brain into overdrive.

And its so frustrating to deal with... and im surprised i get by each day considering how bad i feel sometimes..

But there's always means to an end right..

Has ANYTHING worked for you so far?

Thanks for your replies..