ray_3

I am a normal sixteen year old, well I think i'm normal. I've got a couple issues that started over a year ago and are still very troubling. I'll get right to it. Lots of teens drink alcohol but i've always frowned apon it and never exactly tried the experience. I've had a few sips but never anything more. It pretty much started when I dated a girl that would occasionally drink at parties with her friends, but then when I attended guys were there too. I didn't trust her and thought maybe she'd cheat on me. I've hated it ever since, and now my current girlfriend is younger than me, and parties a lot more than I do, even when I ask her not to. Recently she asked (well told me) she was staying at her friend's house, and I jumped to conclusion and expected beer to be there and then elapses into a long story about how a party is going on and guess what... I wasn't invited. I freaked out a little bit (okay a lot). I've convinced her not to go and her friends will hate me forever, but I can't stand sitting around while she's at a party and i'm not, thinking about what she's doing and who's doing what around her. And the summer break is coming up soon and I expect a lot of parties to go on. Does anyone have an idea of what I should do? Most people would say "Break up with her" but I just don't want that. I'm always afraid her and her friends are going to get into trouble and my girlfriend is going to hurt me, although drinking by itself hurts me terribly and I don't exactly know why. Can anyone help or am I just too immature or really too MATURE. I can't deal with it, i'm not strong minded enough, somebody help!