Irrational thoughts - Anxiety Message Board

chinagrl426 · 07-15-2004, 08:50 AM

WIll someone please tell me if depersonalization ever goes away if you are really trying to get better. I dont know if I have it or if maybe I had it once and now I am dwelling on the thought of having it so I feel weird from that. Either way, I feel like eveerything else is getting better except for this. My mind is forgetting what normal is-but I refer to it as how I was before all this stuff started. My psychologist said that he did not think it was actual depersonalization that it was subconcious thoughts, or irrational thought. I feel the same too sometimes but then other days its worse so i dont reallly know. I am so caught up in this everyday and I cant stand it anymore. I feel like a weirdo, I never htought I would be going through this much less ever go to a psychologist. Someone please help me feel better. I am trying my best to be patient because I know this is a long process to recover from a full blown anxiety attack but Im not sure how much more I can take.

monarchangel · 07-15-2004, 04:39 PM

Hi Heather-
I see what you are saying because I go through the same thing. Can you explain a little bit more about how you feel and when you feel this way. Is it 24/7? Is it that brain foggy feeling? How has your stress been? I just finished college last year and I had all these health things happen to me at once which gave me this nervous scary feeling all the time. My doctor told me it was anxiety, but I think it si something more. She put this fear in me that I just can't let go of. I was just wondering if we both have the same thing. Is it like you feel your head is really cloudy all the time and you are nervous that something is always wrong.

chinagrl426 · 07-15-2004, 07:27 PM

Yes-that is exactly how I feel- I am always dwelling on something. Either I think I have something wrong with my head or I dwell on the thought that I have derealization. Im not sure if I have it or not but I havent felt like myself lately. My stress level isnt too bad right now but I am taking one class and I will graduate July 31, so I am a little stresses about that but I consider that normal. However-that doesnt help because your body doesnt differentiate between good or bad stress, if it produces adrenaline the body is going to react the same, especially while in the anxiety state. I dont know what it is. But I was really stressed at the end of last semester and I started getting tension headaches, which I'd never had before-so then I convinced myself that I had a brain tumor. It went downhill from there. I experienced all kinds of irrational thoughts from wanting to harm other and myself to wondering why I was here and questioning what life was about. It was scary and I think that it made it worse. Now I hear myself talk and its like I am all there and I know what is going on but I still dont feel quite right. At first I had a lo of the "foggy" feeling but when I was able to sort through some of my thoughts that did get a little better. But I still dont feel 100%. I think my mind is so used to being in this state that it doesnt know what normal is anymore. And I am working on trying to control my thoughts but it is so hard. Its like my mind is forcing me to believe that I am not myself-sounds crazy but true. How do you feel-does any of this sound like what you are going through?

chinagrl426 · 07-15-2004, 07:29 PM

Oh-what kind of fear are you talking about-what are your symptoms??

ainfante · 07-16-2004, 07:12 AM

To bring yourself out of dereaslization, you need to ground yourself. This would be by saying the color of the carpet or your walls and everything else that surrounds you. Get into your surroundings (ex: nature) and name them and their colors, etc. everything positive about them. This breaks the mind.

Andrea