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Had my very 1st acupuncture session yesterday, it was slightly scary but ok I did have the urge half way through to rip those needles out & run like the wind but managed to resist thankfully. I was asked sooo many questions & found myself talking about all sorts of things to a total stranger & somehow I started telling her of a very destructive relationship I had in my late teens (I am 36 now) I suppose unconciously it still bothers me - I think I still blame myself for not knowing what kind of man he was & not being able to get rid of him (he stalked me for quite some time) & although this is unreasonable I can't get past it. Anyway the therapist (a very nice chinese lady) said that my body probably went into shock & has never really recovered...

She says that the AP should sort that out (how easy ?) by releasing the tension & letting the negativity go, that basically my body has been holding on to this tension & unable to release it ever since. When I look back at my ailments over those years, you could say that they were tension related. My knees for instance have given me terrible pain off & on for several years now & the docs seem unable to do much about it. Well this is also unreleased tension in the tendons apparantly ? not sure about that one but I'll give it a go for a while. Anything is worth a try. She also says this is why I am so very tired & lethargic - being that tense all day can really take it out of you.

I would be interrested to hear how anyone else has got on with AP.

One last thing - does anyone sweat a lot (being a lady, I only perspire :-)) in stressy times, I mean I can be talking to someone & suddenly realise that my back is dripping wet with sweat & my face etc. My god it's embarrasing, when you want to be in control so much & think you are doing so well but find yourself wiping your top lip every few seconds hoping no-one has noticed, which of course they have. Does anyone else suffer with this one ??