Re: anxiety and stress.... do i have a more severe condition?? schizo maybe?? help plz..
These thoughts about loosing control and doing something you don't want to do (ie: harm youself) sounds like anxiety IMO. I would definately tell your doctor though. Many people with OCD have thoughts of harming themselves or other people (these are unwanted thoughts and cause a great deal of anxiety and panic attacks).
Also, I use to be paranoid I had schizo. I didn't have any reason to be afraid, I just felt like my brain was crazy or something. I couldn't even watch TV if someone with a mental illness like schizo, multiple personality disorder, etc. was on and I would panic when people would use the word "crazy" in the every day usage of it. I thought I was going crazy! I was diagnosed with GAD and panic disorder.
If you are afraid that people (like your friends) are talking about you behind your back, then that sounds like maybe social anxiety disorder. If you are worried that the FBI, CIA, etc. are talking about you, then it might be something different. I am not familiar with your medication. Is it an anti-depressant?
Just be sure to tell you doctor everything you told us here and see what s/he has to say.
Hang in there!