tobefree

Hi
Let's see I feel like Iam the only person in the world that is like me.
When I go to the mall I feel like iam going to lose my balance while walking and I get kind of dizzy headed.
And Iam always thinking someone is watching me or laughing at about the clothes I wear or how I walk.
It seems like my clothes never fits right or is out of fashion Iam never comfortable with the clothes I wear.
When I iam at a dinner like with other people even at work during lunch i can easily get choked with the food iam eating it is hard for me to sallow but when I am by myself I don't have this problem.
I really don't have friends cause it's hard for me to talk to people and its also hard for me to trust people. It seems like when I want to talk my mind is blank and don,t know what to say. I know Iam a shy person but I don't know where all of this came from I,ve been this way as far back as i can remember.
A lot of people think Iam gay but iam not I don,t like men I like women.
But because I don't go out much and that i live alone people tend to think am gay.
I am married but I have been sep. for 3 years now but we still see each other from time to time.
Is anyone in here going though syptoms like these please let me know I would like to have someone to chat with.
Thank You