Re: Maybe social anxiety?
you have sdeveloped social phobias, that is special fears about social situations, you also have fears of these fears, this can lead to panic attacks
there are many books and courses on overcoming SA and agoraphobia, they all involve desensitisation and relaxation, get some and study them, you must not be stubborn as you need to learn from them
some valium type med taken about 1 hour before a difficult meeting will calm you and help a lot also, these meds taken as needed wont hurt you or your memory
most docs would prescribe an antidepressant, these meds are being heavily promoted to docs for your problems, sometimes they help but they are heavy duty meds