JustGinger

I am 28 and have suffered from GAD for almost 6 years now. Until last week, I hadn't had an attack in over two years. Maybe I have forgotten what they were like because it seem that this time, they are ten times worse than before. I am having atleast 2 attacks a day and they last anywhere from 10 minutes to an hour. I think about them all of the time though. My head hurts constantly and I am sure that I have a brain tumor even though the doctors have reassured me that I'm fine. I constantly check my pulse and when my heart seems to be beating a little too fast I freak out. After twenty minutes or so of counting my heart beats and trying to breath, my chest starts to hurt, I get dizzy, and feel like all of the energy has been drained out of me. I feel pain in my chest constantly combined with heartburn and pain in my left arm and leg. My neck and back hurt all of the time and I have more pain than any one person should have to experience. I am scared to death that I am dying even though my doctor is positive that I am completely healthy. Bedtime is the worst. I toss and turn in bed while my heart attempts to pound out of m chest. My husband wanted to take me to the ER the other night, but I wouldn't let him because I figured it would be a complete waste of money since they would just tell me that I'm fine. God help me if something is ever really wrong with me because I'll just attribute it to anxiety and lay at home and die! I don't wanna go through this anymore especially since it has been so long since I've had to deal with it. I feel so alone and so frustrated because it seems like this will never go away and I really don't want to live my life like this. Does anyone else ever feel like this? Thanks in advance for the support.