What the hell is wrong with me? - Anxiety Message Board

richdaws1984 · 01-15-2005, 08:09 AM

I am getting so angry and unhappy because nobody knows what wrong with me and nobody is helping!!!!!!!!!!!

This is my list of symptoms:

Fast Heartbeat - At rest anywahere between 70 and 100. Can go up to 150+ when at worst.

Heavy Heartbeat - Pulsating feeling all over body.

Chest, back and shoulder pain - Sometimes sharp, sometimes aching.

Lightheaded - Feel like im not really there and about to pass out.

Nervous (Stomach churning)

Weak - Like my legs cant be bothered to hold me up

Tired

Starting to get depressed.

I got rushed to A and E about 3 weeks ago as i had a really fast heart beat of 150 and chest pains.

I had ultrasound, ecg, x-ray, bloods, blood pressure - all OK.

They sent me home the next day because they couldnt find anything wrong with me.

I'm still the same now its making me so angry and depressed. I fear going out to the pub and stuff in case i collapse or something.

My doctor has put me on 40mg Verapamil to slow the heart down but i dont think its working.

It seems to be related in some way to worry or stress. It is triggered by my ex-girlfriend and whenever i think about her my heart rate rockets up and i get so nervous. I then cant stop thinking about my heart and get myself all worked up.

I can go all day at work feeling relativly OK. But then if i am due to meet friends that for a drink that night, as soon as i start getting ready or think about getting ready my heart rate shoots up from about 70-80 bpm to more like 120 bpm. I can then feel my heart beating away in the stomach, temples and chest.

I go out anyway and i stay like this all night. Its horrible because i cant stop thinking about it and i feel like im about to pass out and i dont have a good time. I have stopped drinking alcohol because i dont want to blackout when im drunk in case i dont know what to do or something. I also drive everywhere in case i have to go home ill.

Sometimes i have to leave early and when i get home and watch tv i return to normal.

I sleep fine and this doesnt effect me at night. (It seems)

As far as i can figure out this these symptoms are with me all the time but 80% of the time there are hardly noticeable. They seem to get worse when i go out to places like pubs and clubs and when i think about my ex,( who im still friends with and i see her most weeks) and when i think about my symptoms.

I am worried that my ex might start going out with one of my friends and this is what gets me worked up. I also get a nervous feeling when shes around me and i cant figure out why. Its driving me crazy!!!!!!!!

Once i notice that my heart is beating fast i cant get it out of my head and get more and more worried about having a heart attack or blacking out. The my heart rate gets worse and i cant put it out of my mind.

Im on a 15 week waiting list at the hospital for an outpatient visit - But i cant carry on like this!!!

Nobody seems to seem bothered about helping me in a hurry!!!!!!!!

My family are concerned but they think it is a bit in my head because my symptoms get worse when i think about them.

This is stopping me from going out and enjoying life in general and in turn its getting me more anxious that i am missing out on stuff with my mates and getting left behind!!!!!!

I have posted in this board but i dont know if its anxiety related at all.

Please help.

Im 20 y/o male who is really Pi##ed off.

hry33 · 01-15-2005, 08:42 AM

a properly adjusted beta blocker med will calm the heart, it wont cause a heart attack but 'heartattack' symptoms are common for anxiety sufferers

do learn to relax and stop worrying
the rest is probably all related to strtess and anxiety, ask doc, some valium type meds as needed will also help

try to ignore your heart, dont monitir it or tune in to it

CyberNick · 01-15-2005, 12:05 PM

Sounds like you're just having anxiety triggered by your break-up, and also just thinking about things to much and worrying. I know it sounds stupid to say "just dont think about it," but honestly... don't. Break-ups are hard for anybody, so I know what you're going through. I pretty much had all your symptoms exactly, but they weren't triggered by anything and depression/anxiety runs in my family so meds were pretty much my only option if I ever wanted to feel "normal" again.

Valium type meds could work out for you. If you have a night where you feel like you just can't get yourself to go out, they can help calm you down with pretty much the only side effect being drowsiness. Talk to your doc about them.

sts1505 · 01-15-2005, 05:41 PM

Rich, AFTER you see your doc and he/she tells you that they cannot find anything physical causing your symptoms, then you need to start trying to convince yourself that is is ONLY axniety. You say that you have to drive yourself every time that you want to go out in case you have to leave.. Try talking to your friends and explain to them what you are going through and what they can do to help you when you start feeling a little OFF. Don't ever be embarassed or ashamed to let people know what you are going through b/c one of them might be going through the same thing and can give you a little advice. I am a 37 year old man with a family of five and many good friends that have all help me get this under control. Never under estimate the power of friendship. There are many FRIENDS for you on this board that will help you out in any way they can. Keep on posting and let everyone know how you are doing, and ask anything you need to, someone here probably will be able to answer it for you. Laugh at anxiety and it becomes a Joke, fear anxiey and it becomes a NUSIANCE!!!!!

anxious2 · 01-16-2005, 09:17 PM

You've described almost exactly what I went through the first time I started having anxiety/panic attacks several years ago. I know it's not easy, but try not to panic about panic. It does feed off of itself. I've had some really bad attacks over the years and they never hurt me.

I'm not a big fan of taking medication. I do not currently take any, for which I'm thankful. However, when push comes to shove, I will take medication if necessary. My point is that you may want to consider taking some anti-depressant medication, if you aren't already. I'm telling you, Paxil saved my life. One thing to keep in mind, if you don't already know, anti-depressant medications can take several weeks to kick-in. You may also have to try a couple of different kinds to find one that works for you. It took two attempts for me to find one that worked. Everyone's body is a bit different.

Stay strong and don't be too hard on yourself.