| And I was doing so well...
I was playing dodgeball this evening (through my old University, Ben Stiller has a lot to answer for) and halfway through I get a palpitation (y'know the one where it feels like 1 super strong heartbeat and just instinctively your hand reaches for your heart...)
Anyway, after that I was doing nothing but concentrate on that and my pulse rate - couple of minute later I get a rising tightening feeling inside my lower chest (which just happens to be the exact feeling I felt before my first panic attack over a year ago) and that's it I'm done for the day, can't really relax.
One good thing to come out of it is that I didn't have a panic attack, or a heart attack or pass out or anything other than now feeling really jittery and jumpy but I was genuinely feeling so much better about my life and possible future (even contemplating being alive at one point made me certain that I was going to die soon, so this is definitely better).
Dammit - tomorrow is day 1 again I guess, though maybe a better starting point than before.
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