Is there REALLY hope for me in life? Is there hope for ME? - Anxiety Message Board

ginamomof3 · 02-24-2005, 01:44 PM

Sometimes I just feel like there is no hope for me whatsoever. I am a stay at home mother to my wonderful children who are my life. I am married to someone who has mental problems himself (worse than mine- like psychosis sometimes) and it takes a toll on me to keep him well. I suffer from severe anxiety and have since I was very very young.

I am sooooooo anxious ALL of the time! I sufffer from severe insomnia and most every night I have severe trouble sleeping. My heart races all day long. I constantly worry ALL day long about everything, stupid stuff at that. I worry about not sleeping, I count the hours I might have slept and worry about that. I just worry so much about sleep. It rules my life. My heart races at night and I get so scared because I am not sleeping.

I just am a wreck. I just dont think I will EVER get better. I have been dealing with this for 6 years now and I am still not over it. I am currently taking Paxil, Buspar, Remeron, Trazodone, and Vistiral. This big drug cocktail worked for me for a long while, but now its not working. It takes alot of meds to help me where my anxiety is sooooo bad.

To make matters worse my psychiatrist is a QUACK and yesterday at my visit he bawled me flat out when I was telling him I dont feel any better he said "you be QUIET, STOP IT, I am tired of this worrying crap, stop it, just STOP IT" and he screamed so loud that I am sure other heard him. I left crying.

Please tell me there is hope for me to live an anxiety free life or at least somewhat anxiety free. Is there really hope for me? Just tell me if you think there is hope or not.

angels3112 · 02-24-2005, 01:57 PM

HI, Have u ever thought about seeing a chiropractor? I know it sounds crazy, but they help with stress by getting rid of nerve interferance. It has helped me and I have neuropathy.

Bell99 · 02-24-2005, 03:16 PM

Gina- I pray there is hope for all of us! You sound a lot like me. I too am a stay at home Mom. I freak on sleep, my heart races, I think I have a terminal illness all the time, I worry if my kids get sick and always think the worst. It's a terrible way to feel all the time I know.
I have been taking 15 mg of Buspar twice a day. It seemed to be doing wonders but like you I am feeling those feelings again. I am so sick of Dr,'s I can't even tell you.
For a while I was trying the walk through my fear approach. I had issues with cars and travel. I would take small trips and when I lived to tell about it I felt wonderful.
You are on a lot of meds, yikes. I take Valume at night on rare occasions to help me sleep because they will only give me 70 a year! I use to take benadryl to sleep but have developed a heart condition and can no longer take it.
All I can say is you're not alone and we are here for you. It seems to be a journey of meds and finding ones that work and for how long! I tried counseling years ago . I want to go on Starting Over and get them to Help LOL When you are going crazy come here to find support, that is what I do. Futher More find another Psychiatrist for heavens sakes that is outrageous that he talked to you like that, very unprofessional. Find someone loving, caring and supportive the last thing you need is to be screamed at! ((hugs))

Sharpie7 · 02-26-2005, 01:22 AM

Hey Gina,
I think the best thing for you to do would be to join a heath club and run on the tread mill for atleast 45 minutes a day. And you really should consider weaning yourself off all those meds. If you're having trouble falling asleep at night I reccomend taking a little Seroquel *talk to your doctor first* it's not addictive like Valium and it might help you with some other issues as well.

Good Luck,
Brian