ms_seeker

I am alomost 25 years old and I am so tired of doctors that it is not even funny anymore!! I have had been diagnosed with anxiety disorders since I was 15 years old, but it has been bothering me all of my life. I have taken every kind of antidepressant on the market and none of them worked, and neither did the anti-psychotics, alone or in combination with the antidepressants. I have insomnia that lasts for days at a time. The doctors won't put me on a benzodiazepine because they say it is too addictive, but I suspect my age has alot to do with it also. I have been hospitalized more than 20 times in 10 years. Last year a new doctor put me on Klonopin and I felt so much better and was resting better. But wouldn't you know the outpatient doctor gave me Buspar and no Klonopin!! Even though I told him I had already been on it, and I also brought my bottle of Klonopin in to show him I was cutting 0.5 mg tablets in half because I didn't want to get too dependent. 10 or 12 pills a month would have been ok. But no. There is a NP in town who will give me Vistaril shots and pills but that is useless for the chronic attacks I have. Therefore, I often have to end up in the E.R. where they usually give me a injection of Ativan. This all makes no sense for me to be in an E.R. in the middle of a night but what choice do i have? I need some advice and if anyone goes through this maybe we could share advice. Thanks for your time.