| | How long can anxiety last??
I have been experiencing almost constant anxiety for 3-4 months now because a bat flew over my head, caught a bug in it's wings and then flew off like a fighter jet into the feild. I must admit that it creeped me out at the time but after I returned home from my walk, I just brushed it off. Then, the "what if's" started like "what if it was rabid, licked itself and as it flew over me a peice of fur came off and I inhaled it" or "what if it slobbered or urinated on me as it flew over?". The next thing I know, I am in the ER freaking out and ever since then, any time I get a symptom, I immediately think it's rabies and I'm going to die. Also, I'm always checking myself for "bites". This has made me lose interest in doing anything anymore because if I'm going to die anyway, what's the point?.
I remember about 12 years ago thinking I had AIDS. I had nightmares about AIDS, obsessed about it day and night, had panic attacks, begged all my freinds to get tested, read about all the symptoms and felt like I had ALL of them and ended up having a severe nervous breakdown. I turned into a helpless, quivering mass of jelly and could hardly even feed myself it got so bad. This went on for months. Now it's rabies. Does it ever end?.
I guess the most important question I have is this: is it possible to develop a phobia and have intense anxiety that lasts for months or even years?. I have always thought that anxiety was something that you just had for a few hours or maybe a day or two but can you have more or less constant worry/fear/anxiety lastings for months or longer over a disease?. I've now taken up drinking, smoking, popping benzos during the day and an Atarax at night just to help me sleep. It's been a roller-coaster and I want off so bad!!.
Anyway, thank's for listening.
- Lonely Traveler