missy101

Any advice?

Let me tell you why I am asking..

This weekend has been the worst in years. Constant anxiety. Panic attacks. Out of control fear that something is physically/dangerously wrong with me. Body aches..flu like. Head aches. I have taken .50 - .75 mg of ativan a day for 5 days. I usually take .25 a day IF that. This relapse has me so depressed.

What is even worse is my husbands reactions. He is angry because I have not wanted sex for the last 3 days - keep in mind we did have sex 3 days in a row prior..its not like its been weeks. I told him I just feel awful and Im not in the mood. He says it hurts his feelings and I should care about his feelings too. I even wrote him a note the other night telling him I love him and that I know my issues are hard on him and that I am doing anything I can to overcome them. It didnt seem to matter. He is being very combative, defensive, and cold. I am so surprised and hurt by his actions. He really believes that he is being completely right and I am not being understanding. We have a counsler appt Thursday and that cannot possible come soon enough. I just dont know what to do. I am trying so hard to remain calm. This is making it very difficult. I wish I jsut didnt care. I am so anxious, sad, frustrated, angry, and hurt.

How can I help him to understand what I am going thru? What can I do???