| | Message of Inspiration!
Hi all - I want to share this with all of you because I have been suffering with alot of "situational" anxiety lately - that's what I call it when tough things are going on in my life causing the anxiety, as opposed to when it just flares out of nowhere. Anyway, I was just beginning to feel weighed down, like my life was being defined by anxiety and taking meds, and "what if this happens?", and hypochondriac-type thoughts.
Then, yesterday, at church, just as Mass was about to start, our priest noticed that the person assigned to be the reader for Mass had not shown up. Literally, one minute till Mass time and I was standing there and he said, "No one's here, can you please be the reader for me?" Without even thinking, I agreed, and I have never read a Mass before in my entire life! Next thing you know, I am walking into the packed church (over 1,000 people) and reading to them from the Bible like I had done it all my life.
I don't know who was more surprised, me, my husband and sons, or my priest! But, I have to bet, it was me. If there had been one minute to think about it, there is NO way I would have done it. The experience really changed me! It made me wonder, how many other things am I holding myself back from because I "think" I can't do it???? Hmmmm....
I am not suggesting that we all run around "testing" the limits of where our anxiety will allow us to go, but I am going to personally try to do that in baby steps, and see if it makes more changes in my life. Next time I automatically think "no way" about doing something because of anxiety, I am going to at least stop and think, "why not?" even if I am not ready to actually try to do it.
I wish I could better share with you all the huge shot of courage that this experience has brought me, but telling you about it is all I can do. I hope it reaches someone else and gives them as much hope and "light at the end of the tunnel" as it has given me!
Best wishes, Marirose