I don't have any more anxiety about public speaking than I do anything else: as soon as I start speaking, I calm down- it's just the anticipation that provokes the panic attacks...

However, last year in my Speech and Comp class, I was giving a speech, and I wasn't any more nervous about it than any other time, but halfway through it, my vision went black, my hearing was lost, I felt like I had to throw up, and I became so pale. I couldn't even hear myself speaking or see to look at my notes, but I got through the end, thank God. My teacher, who I'm very close with, asked me later on if I wanted to give the speech again because she knew it was uncharacteristic of me, but I just asked her to give me the grade I deserved b/c I hate getting special treatment and accommodations for my OCD- why I didn't ask for extra time to take tests or do assignments at the beginning of this year, my freshman year of college...
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