Ok I am just going to go out tomorrow! I hope, - Anxiety Message Board

louane · 10-05-2005, 12:52 AM

I have been feeling bad for over three months.. I havnt been to walmart or any deptment store since the first of Aug. I had a really bad panic attack at walmart and have been avoiding going places.. So for the last three months, I have only went to church and the Doc. I am so tired of allow this disorder to dictate my life. I am going to make myself go to kmart. Its close to my house so I wont have to drive that far... I am not going think about it and stress over it,,, but I want to write this down so I kind of have like an obligation to go...
So wish me luck
thanks
louane

red-rider · 10-05-2005, 02:34 AM

hello louane! I really feel for you. I used to love shopping~and Walmart was a favorite,but these HUGE supercenters are not enjoyable to me anymore. I like going to the smaller grocery stores and I really like Dollar Tree and Big Lots. Like you I just hate it that I cant pick up my purse and race out the door. Thank God for Ativan~it allows me to get out and get my errands done. I also have to go to football games(every week) to see my son play. The tall steep stadium is really tough for me. But with Ativan(and some prayers) I get through it. I hope Kmart goes well for you. We no longer have Kmarts here and I sure miss them. Let us know how you do!
best of luck~RR~

debill · 10-05-2005, 06:07 AM

You can do it Louane,

I had to force myself recently too. It was hard the first couple of times. I took a friend with me. It helped me alot.

Let us know how you make out and buy something nice for yourself.

deb

laineyk · 10-05-2005, 08:38 AM

Louann, you sound like me....First part of Aug I fell apart after being off meds for 4 months...Only went to church & grocery shopping with alot of anxiety...well I just forced myself out the door thinking "well, if I die..I am going to heaven & that is better then this" Are you on any meds? Good luck

Punkdizzle · 10-05-2005, 09:03 AM

louane you are on the right track by forcing yourself to just go. I know it probably isnt feeling like its a good idea but it really is and the more you just go the less the anxiety will have that fear hold on you.. when i first started having panic attacks i was just like everyone else and had that horrid fear of having them in public places.. I do not have that at all anymore and i did it without meds.. i am not saying i am any better then anyone else because i did it without meds, if they help you by all means take them. Even on my worst days i am still able to go out.. i may feel like crap but because i had forced myself to go even when i was feeling anxious it no longer has that hold on me.. thats not to say it isnt still bothering me in other ways now and then but i am at least able to get out of the house when i want to..

Good luck!