GatsbyLuvr1920

malibu- Me, too! I don't sleep because I'm depressed (although all of my medications do make me tired), but whenever I'm having really, really bad panic attacks, I just sleep to block everything out, and I know that I have two hours or so before I have to face the stress. Usually, the best example of me doing this is when I'm literally having a "mini-breakdown", and sobbing uncontrollably- during these episodes (which I get quite frequently because of constant feelings of worry, guilt, and shame...), I just cry in my bed, throw the blanket over my head, and face the wall to ruminate and have my obsessions in peace. It's also because, when I get like this, everything that I look at just triggers more anxiety or emotions, so facing the wall inhibits my vision. When I cry like this, it's even obsessive-compulsive! I cry in certain stages, and whenever the tears stop, and certain thoughts won't make me start up again, I have spasmodic, rhythmic gasps/heaves. They just kind of lull me as they slow (which could take 15 minutes), and by that time, the synchrony combined with the total exhaustion automatically guarantees that I'll fall asleep... Think I'm going to take a nap right now, in fact! Ever since I started SSRI's (and now Klonopin) three years ago, I can't seem to stay awake in the afternoon, and I'll take a nap anywhere from 2-4 o'clock!
-GatsbyLuvr1920-

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