I know why its back, getting on the tube!! - Anxiety Message Board

layla= · 02-26-2006, 05:10 AM

I have been quite anxious again lately and today i know why,
I got the position that i applied for in jan when i was on top of the world, I start that next monday evening
The thing is to go through the training i have to go to north london and travel thru rush hour, i live in south london and it means a journey on the northern line ( the line that was disrupted on 7/7 so caused the bus explosion) I live at the end of the northern line, i am cacking it, I have never liked tubes, i refused to get on one til i was 17, then last july that happened, and i havent been on a tube since, even buses were a big deal at the time, the day it happened i had to get a bus to pick up my daughter from school, I telephoned them to arrange an early pick up so i could avoid the busy times of day, after that it took a while for me not to shake and sweat while on a bus. Even now i look at people with back packs and bags.
I really offended someone once when i looked at his large bag looked at his clean shaven face and got off the bus, he looked at me in disgust, but i couldnt do it. I couldnt travel with my daughter on that bus.
So how do i deal with this, i was no where near the bombings and no one i know was affected at all, but still i am a nervous wreck over it.
Oh dear, i really want this job but by the time i get there i will be a freak!

Oh dear, oh dear oh dear, i am shaking just thinking of it.
Thankyou for listening everyone, you are all wonderful

hry33 · 02-26-2006, 05:20 AM

meds and CBT will be a big help, {REMOVED}

layla= · 02-26-2006, 05:26 AM

Am doing cbt now, meds are not for me. I am just about back to being me and this was the new thing , i work part time aswell now so am introducing plenty of things into my life, its how to deal with the things that you think are going to kill you, and in fact did kill 56 people on their way to work.

iyami · 02-26-2006, 12:44 PM

ther are thousands of americanswho ahveteh same problem with airplanes sense 9/11
but the thing is.. the chances of a bus your on exlodeing while your on it are so low that your more likley to be struck by lightening.. twice.

im afriad of airplanes becuase im afraid theyll crash

that has nothing to do with 9/11, im just scared of hights..

im sort ofa know-it-all, so when im scared i like to look up as much info as i can, taht amkes me feel better, but the best thing to do is face your phobias, ive flon on airplanes afew times, im still scared, but atleats i know i can do it

you could try therapy, aromatherapy, massagetherapy, or simple herbs, theyre all very good alternatives to meds

lindsalou · 02-26-2006, 02:57 PM

Hi Layla,
I fully understand where your coming from.
I returned to work a few weeks ago, and my biggest fear is the travelling. My problem is sort of different to yours in the sense of i wont drive, wont use public transport either, so at the minute im getting taxi's to and from work (which is quite expensive) but once im at work my anxiety seems a lot better - so i see it as a necessary expense.

My biggest fear is travelling alone, so maybe you could see if theres someone you could travel with?
Im with you on the fear of bombings though, i havent been into manchester for years for the same reason big city, big target!

I wish i could give you an answer, but i suppose many would say (my counsellor in particular - 'face your fears'.
Anyway, good luck, im sure you'll deal with it (find that positive layla again!)
Linds