I've had panic attacks (not panic disorder, though) since I was three- I'm now 15, so I've had these lovely companions for 15 years...

They're so much a part of me that I'll never want to get rid of the minor ones during a situation that always warrants a panic attack because I simply wouldn't know how to react. It's not as if there's a time when I can remember what it was like being completely free of panic attacks. My first memories are from age three onward, and I actually can remember the feeling of one of my first panic attacks when I was three. However, I've been having a particularly bad one on-and-off all day long, probably for a total of six hours so far, and continuing now because I have to give some stupid speech tomorrow. Public speaking isn't what worries me- it's the whole writing of the speech and the whole fact that I have to organize it, get my facts straight, worry if it's good enough, worry if it'll be long enough, worry if I'll have enough information, plan what I'll do if I end up not having enough information, etc. The list goes on and on...The best part is that my hands are shaking so badly that I can barely type, but can I take a Klonopin? Hell, no! That would mean that, although the panic would subside, I'd fall asleep in about 30 minutes, sleep all night through, and not finish my work! Oh, and I also have a chemistry quiz tomorrow...Fun times, fun times...

I totally understand what you're going through; I go through it practically daily. If you ever want to talk, vent, or have any questions, I'm here. Good luck, and God bless!
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