it go so far to say ruined but...
It's made life very difficult and seriously damaged my self-esteem. But I have it under better control know...normally can't drive, dependent, have 1 friend, dated 1 girl for about month 1/2, concentration reduced to 30% (if that) and even simple stuff like getting the mail/walking through the park/etc...doesn't even cross my mind...My doc. wrote down "substantial impairment" for me which is one grade up from housebound/disabled. Well, my anxiety was at 34 by the Hamilton Anxiety before getting Lex. despite therapy, although it was helpful seeing that my anxiety was at 38 2 years ago (the cutoff for severe anxiety is 30). With Lex. and ativan I have brought it down to 20, which is in the mild-moderate range and feel like I can do much more. I posted a little while back "anxiety suffers where are you" because I see NO ONE on the street who looks the least bit anxious or at least visibly anxious. Your perception of the world changes if your anxiety is cut by a good amount, so be proud of what you have been able to accomplish despite your anxiety, and there's a lot of hope out there!