I had been doing very well with my anxiety the past few months. Then last week I went into the doc for an annual womenly exam, not worried about a thing, and my doctor told me I have an enlarged thyroid and have to get it checked out. I am having an ultrasound done and, lo and behold, my anxiety came back full force.
Now, once again, I am noticing heart palps and all of a suddeen have pain in my lymph nodes (which i used to get but went away) and ears and armpits. Even though nothing has been diagnosed yet, I am not wanting to bother with work because I am convinced I have cancer and will have to quit anyways. I can't stop the stream of irrational thoughts!
They aren't just health related ---I am scared to eat too fast in case I joke. I take very small bites. Its ridiculous! I'm afraid to fly because I just KNOW my plane is going to crash or be bombed. Every time the phone rings I think its someone with bad news. I even had a thought a week ago "I won't live to see this movie come out" and ever since I had that thought-it came out of nowhere- am scared it might come true.
I have been told by 2 doctors I probably don't need meds since my anxiety is "situational"- in this case, I am having a health scare that has triggered off a wave of anxiety related to EVERYTHING.
I hate feeling this way. Why do I have such irrational thoughts and why do I convince myself they are TRUE?!?!!??!
I just hate when this happens.